''  Best Decision ever''


       

                           We are Living in a world where people deny the existence of God.
some say we are Evolution, some say: we appear per hasard. They say everything just to make us believe that there is no God.

                Growing up, I've always take time to observe the nature.the sound of the sea the color of the sky.the sounds of the river the wise of the sun at the morning .the color of the sky and the birds they re living but nobody feed them. And Us as human the way we were created amanzinly .We breath,sleep ,walk, talk, eat... etc...That always make me think that we can't appear by accident  something inside of me make me think that we were created by something Which is God that's when my interessed  about Knowing God began. One day a friend of mine offered me to study the Bible with me I accepted. Little by little I've learned a lot of things about God and his son Jesus. Something keep telling me I've  found the truth.

       
              I started to read a lot of stories, some had helped me, some had changed my life. I never read such an amazing book as the bible, really inspiring. In May 2014 I got Baptized , It wasn't easy for me to convince my mother about such a decision. They say times make people understand everything and that's what Happened. She finally understood.


                 Getting baptized was such a big decision in my life, it means that I have to live for myself anymore. And that everything you do will guide by the bible principals. It s not easy to being like that as a teenager but trust me it worth it. when you re thinking about all the bad things that you escape yourself from, It makes you think another way you re not quick to judge you see the world with an open eyes, you telling the truth no matter what. And most importantly remember that nobody is perfect .

          It s not an easy life to live but you will have no regrets just like me. And feel free about a lot of things just like I do. I am glad that I made that decision, it was the best ever.

                                                    New Life

       They say the hardest thing in life is starting over again. I never believed it until I had to leave my country. I had waited for this day all my life, but the day had finally come and everything looked so different. Instead of joy I had tears.

 

        It was a morning like every other one, the smell was so delicious it woke me up. It was my grandmother's coffee There's nothing in the world better than that. I opened my eyes and saw my big sister on my bed. She was looking at me sleeping which was cute and strange; but to her it's not cute, she is not an emotional person at all. She said to me "I will be waiting on the day that I will see you again." That's when I started to realize that I was going to be missed. I stood there thinking "why these people are crying? Going to USA should be fun." I went outside and saw my childhood friends. I thought they were going to be happy for me, but instead they were crying. I remember saying “ you guys are acting like I am going to die''. One of them said softly, "That's because we're going to miss you." I said, “I am going to miss you guy's too,". Still I didn’t know what was going on. I went to take a shower that was the best shower. It was fast and I dressed myself I was ready to go, I started to realize that I wasn't happy anymore. All of my Happiness was gone. I started questioning myself about what did happen to me. I couldn’t find any answer. My uncle came to took my mother and me to the airport.

          Arriving at the airport my whole family was there. My Grandmother touched my face as nobody ever did it before. She told me if we are not going to see each other again remember that I love you, you're my favorite granddaughter. Tears started falling down my face and I said, "grandma everything will be fine and I will see you again I promise, she said to me baby don't promise anything, only God knows how long am I going to live," she took me in her arms and gave me the biggest hug ever I told her that I love her. I looked at my sister in the eyes and started to remember every single night that we spent together, how much I’ve loved her company she gave me a big kiss and said, "I know what you are thinking right now, you are going to miss me and my delicious food even though it wasn’t that, I smiled and said, ''Girl you guessed it. I heard they call the number of my flight And my mom said, ''It's time sweetie" That's when I broke down I kept crying until I couldn’t say anything.

        Arriving in the United states, I remembered it was so cold right away I felt so bad about my decision. Missing home everyday, I cried every single night when I first came. My grandmother passed away two months after I left. It pained me to say that she was right about our last goodbye. Life over here is so different than my country I never saw snow until I came here, It’s never been cold in my country. I don’t know my neighborhood and I can’t trust anybody which is really different than my country. Things are so different here, but the USA gives me the opportunity to become whoever I want to be. I just have to fight for my dreams, which is different than my countrty I have no regrets.

                                                 
                              The Day That Changed My Life




               On January 12th, 2010, a massive earthquake erupted close to the capital of Port-au-Prince, Haiti. In the days that followed, the death toll rose to over 23,000 to 300,000 were injured and 1.5 million made homeless. Here s my story.




         On the day of the earthquake, I was with my family at home, but I was asleep. The first moment I felt the shock I was awakened; I went outside quickly my family and I we formed a chain. We were upstairs and we could not go downstairs. As we were holding hands we couldn't see anything, because the power went down. All we saw was dust. As soon as the earthquake stopped, we went downstairs. We stood in the street watching people that ask for help but we couldn't help, it was really painful to watch. We lied down, but were unable to sleep.



           That night was like the titanic movie everyone was in fear hoping we survived even though things did not look like they were getting any better. to make matters worst the ground kept shaking, because of the after shocks. we kept calling Jesus name I had no idea when it was going to stop. I kept praying, but I Knew that I wasn't going to die I felt it inside of me. I told myself no matter what you will survive. One thing that broke my heart that night, was that little boy who had two of his feet broken. He was only Ten, I can hear the pain in his voice. He urged on saying, "Mom promise me that we will make it safe and I would walk again". I cried like a baby that night.  After all those prayers , and waiting The sun started to rise, it was another day.


     Everyday was a different story, because every day they told us a member of our family or friends had die. Following the earthquake we were living in the street homeless. We cooked, slept and did everything outside, because we were afraid to go back to our Home. As you can see a life like this wasn't easy and safe. There were some camps that raped women, so we had to stay awake every night. We slept in the morning, and to breath you needed a muffler because the street smelled dead bodies.

    We went home two months after, still I couldn't sleep in my room. I was frustrated by everything that I went through . I went back to school months after a few friends of mine were missing like my best friend; because they didn't make it and some lost their memory, some were still unable to talk. Unfortunately everything surrounding me had changed just in ten seconds that made me realize How short life is, I've learned to appreciate every day, and do something amazing like it was my last one.


                    I thank God every day that I survived, but part of who I am changed so much of me remains there in Haiti. It's been 5 years, I still remember like it was yesterday.  as you can I am an earthquake survivor.  

                             
                                                              ''  Gone Too  Soon ''




             The person I will speak of is someone I've known since was ten. She was my one of my closest friend. We went to the same school, She was my best friend, my sister, my everything. I never thought that she was going to leave me like this, without saying good bye!
      
            Tuesday, January 12, 2010 I remember that date more than my birthdate, because it changed my life. That day I woke up in the morning and went to school and I was with her. We played together and ate together as usual. Every afternoon Afterschool I went to her house because we were working on our math skills together. That Tuesday afternoon was so different, because I felt so tired. I went straight home after school. She called me at 3:00 pm and asked where was I. I told her that I was tired that and I didn't think I could make it. She was mad at me, because she never got tired of seeing me.  

    Sometimes I slept at her House, we went out a lot, we were always on the phone, Talking, texting. Sometimes she came over and we would make food and Laugh at our silly Jokes, Dancing, Playing Uno cards. Singing even though neither of us couldn't sing, but it was fun and cute. Our favorite song was "Stand by you", by Carrie Underwood. We loved that line '' I'll stand by you, won't let nobody hurt you''. We smile at each other every time we sang that song. We always wrote letters to each other just to express our feelings. She was the first person that always text me good morning, and the last to say good night to me. We loved each other unconditionally we saw in each other what people cannot see through our eyes. I would never dare loving someone more than Her, because she made me feel special she cared for me. Words can't explain how much she meant to me.


         As we go back to January 12, that most important day. After we had finished talking, I Hang up the phone, and fell asleep, I was never so tired. Around 4:15 pm I woke up, because my bed was shaking. Everything went down in seconds, only seconds I didn't even have time to question myself about what was really happened. I went outside screaming out loud. That's when I heard people say that it was an earthquake. thank God my family and I survived, But from the street we can hear people begging for their lives. We spent the whole night standing on the street . Constantly I asked myself if Linda was all right. I asked my mom if I could go to her House; she told me that there is no way we can go there with all those dead Bodies on the street. The next day I insisted, because something inside of me said that I had to see her, my mom finally said, "Yes".


        Linda was living in a tall building which meant that you could see it from far away. When I got there  was no building, on the street to her house I saw Five dead bodies, one of them was a missing head. It was really difficult to watch. I saw her cousin and I asked him about Linda. He was cold and he told me that she and her little sister had passed. Tears started falling down my face . And He said to me, ''See those dead bodies, the missing head one is her. I Screamed so loud that I became deaf. My whole word fell down in seconds, the most painful thing was when I closed my eyes I could see her and listened to her voice singing "I'll stand by you,won't let nobody hurt you." I became unconscious for a while, My mom took me home with her. It was difficult for me to accept that Linda was gone. I spent days without eating or talking. Everytime I closed my eyes I saw her.

           I couldn't stop asking myself why I didn't go to her house that day. We would have been together; However that also mean it would have been impossible for me to be here today sharing my story with you. Can you imagine someone you knew all your life will be missing in your life forever, it was really difficult for me. She was the most beautiful person that I've known, The nicest and most honest. One Thing that I will never regret is I never missed a Day  telling her how much that I loved her. The Memories Bring me in tears sometimes they are really painful. I never stopped loving Her, I hope to see Her again.


            She will always Have a special place in my Heart, everything I went through in life she was there by my side, through my rise and fall she was my only friend. Sometimes I can hear her voice talking to me. I will always Love You Baby girl. You're gone too soon, because we had so many things to do. Miss you!

                                         I stopped dreaming

            I am one of those  who grew up without a father but I always had my heavenly father (Jehovah).Growing up wasn't easy.

 

            I remember when I was ten years old every single kid that I knew was outside playing with their toys. Me, I had a journal and a pen to express how I felt and wrote everything that I was going through. It wasn't because I didn't have any toys but simply because my life was just different than the rest. At that time I was sad, fragile and jealous of my friends because they always told me everything nice about their fathers and how much they liked to fall asleep in their father's arm.
 
            At 13 I already felt old, because I'd been waiting for my father every day, waited for an excuse like: why he left? He never came back. That made me question my mother every time to have some explanation about my father's absence but I always got the same story.'' He was tired of us, he decided to leave one day and marry to another woman''. which is make him the guilty one every time. Every day, I wrote a poem about him, how sad I was, how I wanted to see him, even pictured the day I would see him. Sometimes I dream about him, My mom always said that we looked alike so many times I stood in front of the mirror just thinking of his face, I stood there for so long that my feet hurt.

 

           At 17 I realized that I had to move on and I became the strongest, most resilient person that you will ever meet. I melt down so many times but those tears made me who I am today, you have to be weak to know your strength, you have to go down to know how to get up. I have learned a lot like: we can't force people to be in our lives, life is a journey we have to do it with people who wants to be part of it. After my father left my mom has been remarried to a very nice and lovely man when I was 3 years old. His name is Remy, He loves and raised me like his own. All those times I had an amazing father next to me I never noticed that. Nobody in this world could never be a better father than him(stepfather) .

           I have my life together now, today I don't dream I live the reality I don't write poems anymore but I conserve those that I wrote just to remind myself of how far I have come. Like they say what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. After all that I've been through I may not know the purpose of everything in my life but I know one thing for sure, I was not built to break!!!